mood: aggravated music: Walk on ~U2~

You know what? The holidays just seem to fly by so damn fast and before I even realise it. Yep, school once again. You know what? I really hate, no detest no LOATHE highschool, because it chatises people for using intelligent phrases.

You are laughed at if you enjoy reading the classics like Austen, Hemingway, Tolkien Bronte and for me Anne Rice. What is that? Why is it that people raise you up on high pedastrials when you have the same brain capacity as a monkey? That by acting dumb, you are above others? And how in the hell does that even begin to make sense? I wish people would stop acting like idiots who have to use 'like' in every goddamn sentence!

That brings me to the point that (you probably are well-aware of now). I HATE my highschool (except it is called a college where I am, pffft...) and I absolutely cannot wait until my real college. Where people learn and act smart (being as manipulative as they goddamn please) to get somewhere in life. Succeeding in life and where most of everything usually pays off.

I am sick of people thinking that the world starts and ends with booze, drugs and sex. That these are the things that make life the most enjoyable. Can't they learn from the painful morning afters, the unwanted pregnancies, STDs, overdoses and so many other things linked to all that crap. 'Oh yeah, I'm all that. Look at me I have black circles under my eyes, my hair is gross and greasy and oh what's that? I look more stoned than Bob Marley on a Monday morning'.

Oh look at this rant? Can you just tell how I am absolutely *jumping* for freaking joy at the prospect of going back to all that crap? Especially our school, full of rich bastards and know-it-alls who can't see past anything over their high noses. Those people who backstab and gossip about each other, the same people who think its freaking hilarious to talk down to people and make them feel bad about themselves for the rest of the term.

Or the most annoying slutty bimbos who practically streak around the oval, rolling around with the other sex like the dogs we know they are. Screaming about everything and continously whining about their lives. (I am on a roll ;o) I especially hate those who can't see the goddamn silver lining right in front of their goddamn face, never realising how lucky they are and you see the look in their eyes. And you just know that they have given up on their life, on every single thing that was practically shoved into their face. These are the ones that make me the most infuriated; that the fact that anything anyone says or does is going to take all that "pain" away.

But the most depressing thing about that is not that they have given up or that nearly nothing will ever change their life to an positive outlook anymore. It is that you want to help them, you want to take that pain away and rewind the clock of life, so that we could be innocent, naive and free again.

Bottom line, I hate school, see all the damn things it has stirred from deep within me now. Damn, I really wish that college is a lot different. And I am very, very willing to take the pludge now and throw away all these bad experiences and turn over a new leaf. To start something new, something better and to live life how I choose to.

*Haha at the all the blasphemous words, I can't be bothered to correct them so just shove it*

mood: content music: My Oh My ~David Gray~

I've always wanted a dog from when I was a little girl, but the problem was my parents never wanted to buy one for me.

They had no reasonable excuse not to. It was always things like the cost of it all, the effort needed and also where we lived, etc. My parents are a pair of whiners, especially my mum who cannot go a day without telling me how difficult her life is, how hard she has to work and what needs to be done around the house, etc, etc.

But the truth is, there are other people who work twice as hard as she does, works to provide for the family and to keep the house over their heads, barely able to afford luxuries as anti-aging creams, and Calvin Klein cologne for women. And still with all this, she says she can't afford an animal which offers unconditional love?

Well, after years and years of persuasion and getting on the Honor's Roll at school, I finally got my wish. My dog is an English cocker-spaniel, (no, not the ones with droopy eyes!) I used to be able to sit on the chair outside (my parents had loosened up, but not so much as to let a dog in the house , oh the horror!) and just hold the small puppy in my arms until it fell asleep. Lucy always used to just fall asleep, eat and fall back to sleep.

It was a fragile little thing, startled by any sort of new and lous sounds or the chicken from our next door neighbor, who had somehow managed to get into our backyard. It was terrified of the thing and yelped her head off about it so that the whole family knew. It wasn't as easy as I though raising a dog could be. Lucy went through her stages.

Cute stage- mostly just sleeping and cuddling in blankets

Curious stage- would love to just chew on anything she could get her teeth into (she ruined 5 pairs of shoes at this stage)

Aggressive stage- protective of every little thing around her and think that everything was a game

Tired stage- well not really tired per say as cocker spaniels are just a bundle of energy for their entire lifespan but not as bouncy and full of energy which never runs otu anymore

Loving stage- likes to cuddle (the stage she is at now, when my parents aren't at home, I always sneak her in and I would just laze away on the coach petting her while she buries her head in my blankets)

The thing I will never ever regret is getting my Lucy and that's the truth because she is an animal who has always regarded me with happiness and besides she lived with us for almost 2 years now and she's practically part of our family, so for the 20 or so years so has left she is going to spend it with me. :o)

mood: enthralled music: ~Unholy Confessions~AV7

Ooooh new journal I am very happy! Well I am on holidays now (yessss) and I just brought my first (shock, shock, horror) Anne Rice book today. "Interview with the Vampire" (must rent out the film) and "The Vampire Lestat".

I am really loving it and I can't put it down. Such vivid descriptions and Louis is such an intriguing character but I must admit, Lestat is my fav coz well he's just an arsehole and for some reason that is much more interesting. Hmmm...I am scared of buying the other books by Anne Rice like "Queen of the Damned", "Blackwood Farm" and the other vampire chronicles which I can't remember right now. I've read that Anne Rice's writing just goes downward from the 2nd book.

Well now my fav part of an entry...avatars o'course! (from Msn dollies)

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